I don’t want to deal with this right now on top of everything else…

So my boyfriend of 5 1/2 years and I broke up last night.  I don’t know how to deal with this on top of the whole I wanna lose weight thing…I’m so depressed right now that I wanna go to the pantry and eat everything chocolate in sight and then go to the grocery and buy a tub of ice cream to drown my sorrows in….

My name is Angela…I am fat and not so happy…

I am a 27 year old female who will be 28 in May of 2009.  I am and have always been overweight for as long as I can remember.  I eat when I am happy, I eat when I am sad, I eat when I am bored.  I love food and it obviously loves me. I am tired of this body as I am sure everyone else is, too.  I am tired of being the fat friend.  I am tired of being the one who everyone stares at when I reach for food.  I am sick and tired of having to pay twice as much for clothes! I am sick of my clothes not being as cute as my friends cause they are fat old lady looking clothes. 
I know that you need to eat less and exercise more.  I have tried that, but I am needing help with the whole motivation thing.  Plus I don’t have the money to go to the gym and “work out” or even know what the heck I am doing in there.  So here is my plea, and I hope you understand.
I NEED HELP AND I NEED IT NOW!  If anyone has any ideas, PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE let me know.